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Showing posts with label ooops. Show all posts

Saturday, 21 February 2015

Whoa, okay.

My cousin reminded me the other day that I haven't posted anything here for a LONG time. So this is an "I'm okay and this is what has happened since the last time"-post. This might get long, so bear with me.

Last time (aka last two posts before this one) I wrote about wanting to cosplay again and that I was getting an apartment.

So yeah...

Well first of all last year was kind of a clusterfuck for me. In the beginning of the year I lost my mummi (grandma from mother's side in this case), was super heartbroken about it for a long time, since she was really important to me. I applied to Theatre Academy, but didn't even get invited to the entrance examination, since I "didn't have enough work experiene in theatre". Mind you, I had graduated at the end of the previous year. I had a hard time getting an apartment and generally a big amount of people were making my life harder one way or another. Different parties (not political ones) wanted money from me all the time and I just had none.

Then magic happened. I was informed I was getting an apartment, and I also decided to adopt a dog from Kulkurit Ry (a group that rescues dogs from the streets in Romania and Estonia). She is the most adorable thing ever, even she is a bit... special sometimes.



Her name is Aurica and she saves my life every day. She is mixed with who know how many breeds and is approximately 1,5 years now. Since she's a rescue, we don't know what her real age is. Nor what breeds she has in her. She arrived to Finland from Romania on the night between 27th and 28th of June. That's also when we celebrate her birthday :D

In the beginning of June I went to Desucon, which revived my urge to cosplay. Soon enough I had my own cosplay page on FB x) But we'll get back to that later.

Quite soon after Desucon I started dating... well "dating". Okay, I got myself a boy. By the end of June we were "officially dating". We're still together, which is surprising since I usually last for only 5 months in a relationship...

So things were going okay. I went to Birmingham for a Teen Wolf event, met my friends there, had fun, got told I look like Natalie Dormer, came back. Went to Ropecon, had an amazing time as usual. Went to Tubecon and met some really cool people and made new friends. Went to Mikkeli with Rafiki, had a blast.
In September I went to Tracon where I was a judge in a cosplay skit competition, had fun and made new friends. Still wanted to cosplay, but had no money. But then I got a job as a youth leader!?!?

Okay, at this point things were going a bit too well for me, so something had to come and mess up my life, right?

And it did. I was supposed to start working in the beginning of November, but got informed that it wasn't possible. For a week or two I was angry and disappointed, but somehowe I got a message saying that hey, I can start working in December! I was to become a youth leader with children's theatre group. And everything was good again. I even decided to do Sailor Pluto for a convention and started the cosplay page I mentioned earlier.
So things are going well, I have an apartment, I have a god, I have a job, I have a boyfriend, and I have hobbies that I like (parapara, cosplay and games)... so what could possibly go wrong?
Well, since you've probably noticed, I can't do well or be happy for a long time without something shitty happening. Well, in the beginning of December I lost my mummu (grandma from father's side in this case). And of course I got sad and a lot of random things started making me anxious (especially people).

I did continue my life and kept doing things I liked. I liked my work (still do!), got into cosplay and making Sailor Pluto and one day in late December as I was on a walk with Aurica, I realised that it's completely okay to let go of the "shitty" people in my life. If they are not good for me, if they always make me feel more bad than good, I can just leave them behind and say no to them.

Since the beginning of this year, things have been quite okay. I do get depressed every now and then, but that's how the illness works, and I'm doing my best on those days.
I went to Yukicon in January, where I wore my Sailor Pluto costume on stage, as I hosted Nordic Cosplay Championship preliminaries and the photoshoot contest.We even held a panel about cosplay skit making with Elina and Miro.

Photo by Santtu Pajukanta.

Once again I met some really cool people, made new friends and had a blast.

I've been working a lot, but good thing is that it's fun and I get to do a lot of different stuff. I also found out that I kinda own land in Pelkosenniemi x) Though I am going to sell it as soon as I get all the papers sorted out, since I don't really do anything with it, and don't have money to keep it in the long run.

Anyway, that's pretty much the past... eight (?) months. I actually have to work tomorrow (TODAY), so I gotta go to bed now. 

I'll try to be more active here, but I don't have much time or energy after work so I'll see what I can do x)

Stay human! Blog ya later~

Saturday, 29 March 2014

Hey there!

Once again I haven't written in ages and I have no reasons or excuses. I just haven't felt like writing anything here. But, I'll try to explain shortly what's happened.

Quite soon after returning from England my life started going down. Like... DOWN.
I was able to do various stuff for a while, but then I started losing that as well. I've had so much trouble and anxiety over various things these past 7 months it's ridiculous.

My medication (anti-depressant and anxiety one) got raised. I managed to get some appointments with a psychiatric nurse, but she wasn't that helpful so when I (completely accidentally) missed one appointment and she didn't call me back (at all), I just decided that I'd rather not see her again.
Then I got diagnosed with anaemia as well.
So pretty much from the beginning of this year, I've been taking 3 kinds of meds. For my mental health problems, hypothyroidism, and anaemia.
SO FUN. (Not.)
The best part? I still don't have an apartment (for NO good reason), no job (I've applied to various), and I'm just... in the point of giving up.

Then yesterday something heartbreaking happened. And in a way it kinda... while it was world-stopping, at the same time I kinda realised that I got to keep trying.
Right now I'm still hurting (mentally and physically) so much, but... I guess I'll survive.

Anywhoo, in order to NOT make this a post about how I dislike life and people, I'll just show you what I bought today to cheer me up from all of what's happened lately. Hehe.

TADAH!

Okay, so in truth I just went to Sokos to get a hair treatment, but ended up getting all that. Whoops.

Lumene: Radiant Touch cleanser and toner

These have been my favourite face products lately. I just really like how they make my skin feel and look like. ( I also have the Radiant Touch face scrub. The whole family! ) And then I saw these two bottles, with +50% extra, and on discount... well... Whoops. I'm hoarding these.

Aussie: 3 Minute Miracle Colour Mate Deep Treatment.

That's a mouthful...
So I did get what I wanted as well. Good thing it was on discount too, because Aussie is ridiculously expensive in Finland. The same bottle is about £5 in England (~6,20€) where as in Finland this is 13-14€ normally. I paid 11,50€. I know, such a huge discount. Not.
You can all bet your asses that I'll be hoarding Aussie stuff when I go to England in July...

We Care Icon: Body Scrub - Love Story

These guys have 3 different body scrubs. Tropical Wind (which I've tried and it smells so good), Love Story (the one I got just now), and Fresh Spirit (which I'm gonna try after Love Story).
Right now I have a feeling that I will prefer Tropical Wind over Love Story, because of the smell, but we'll see. I doubt that they'll feel that different, and the Tropical Wind one was at least gentle, but good. I wasn't meant to get this one either but... discount. Whoops.

Shower cap!

Last but not least (?!) I got myself a shower cap. They weren't on discount, so I got myself the cheapest one. This actually smells like a beach balloon, so I assume it's made out of similar material. But this is gonna make my life so much easier. Yes.

Hmmm. That's about it.
I'll update again when I feel like it, but don't stay on your toes. It might take a while :(

Till then, stay human!

Wednesday, 23 May 2012

It's that rainbow time of the year again.

Yeah, yeah... I haven't updated in a while and blah, blah, blah, but my last two weeks went with me stressing over Uni work, pulling all-nighters, and so on... so I really wasn't in the mood for any updating x)

BUT HERE I AM NOW.



Munching on Pantteri-sweets, which my Finnish friend kindly brought as she's visiting England at the moment, writing something to you about last weekend and Eurovision.

Let's start with last weekend, when I went to Birmingham to a convention, and happened to meet some of my online friends IN REAL LIFE, and made new friends.
It was crazy. We were crazy. And we met some of the most beautiful people out there such as:

Matt Cohen. Damn that man is gorgeous in person. Photo by yours truly.

And Kim Rhodes (everyone should know her from The Suite Life of Zach and Cody), who is an amazing person and I got to enjoy her and Carrie Ann Fleming's coffee lounge. Photo by yours truly.

All the actors I got to meet and talk to were AWESOME. So amazing and funny and nice.
And the friends I made and who I hung out with... OH MY CHUCK. So many Dick jokes. SO MANY. And let's not forget muted Hollyoaks with our own dubbing. It was HILARIOUS and it was a great weekend to finish my second year of university.

Anyway, it is pretty much summer here, and I am dying because of the heat. 26C is NOT cool.
Yesterday, after my counselling, I went to the racecourse with my flatmates to have a small picnic, but I was lying on the ground, head covered with my cap and sunglasses, suffering. Over 23C heat pretty much kills me.
At some point I went to a nice, cool restaurant called Café Rouge for a dinner with my Finnish friend and her friends who she's visiting Worcester. Minute steak with the most awesome garlic butter ever and lemon sorbet + chocolate ice cream for dessert? DON'T MIND IF I DO.
Those people also managed to remind me that it is once again that time of the year when bunch of different countries gather under one roof to listen to some amazing, and some less amazing, music.

Yes, it is time for Eurovision song contest once again. My life is once again complete.

As I was watching the first semi-final yesterday, one of the stars being interviewed referred to the contest as this "circus extravaganza" which had me thinking that I want to do a make up to go with that sentence.
Now, I haven't ever been to circus as a performer, but I know that the make-up is similar to what singers, dancers, figure skaters or any other performer usually have to use in performances.
It has to be visible to the very back row, and considering it's circus, should probably be rather colourful as well.

This also a good excuse to re-do one of my older make-up looks, which I probably never posted here, and change it a bit:

Green, orange and pink with black eyeliner and Sleek Amped lipstick.

I did this look in February already, and I really can't remember posting it (I checked and couldn't find it in my blog) and as you can see, it was quite soon after I had dyed my hair red since there are no roots.

Now then. Circus. Extravaganza.

circus  /'sks/

noun  (pl.  circuses)
1. a travelling company of acrobats, clowns, and other entertainers which gives performances, typically in a large tent, in a series of different places. ■ (informal) a large group of people travelling together on the circuit of a particular high-profile activity: the Formula One grand prix circus. ■ (informal) a public scene of frenetic, noisy, or confused activity: a media circus.
2. (in ancient Rome) a rounded or oval arena lined with tiers of seats, used for equestrian and other sports and games.
3. [in place names] (Brit.) a rounded open space in a town where several streets converge: Piccadilly Circus.

- ORIGIN late Middle English (with reference to the arena of Roman antiquity): from Latin, ‘ring or circus’. The sense ‘travelling company of performers’ dates from the late 18th cent. 

extravaganza  /kstrav'ganz, k-/

noun 
an elaborate and spectacular entertainment or production: an extravaganza of dance in many forms.

- ORIGIN mid 18th cent. (in the sense ‘extravagance in language or behaviour’): from Italian estravaganza ‘extravagance’. The change was due to association with words beginning with extra-.

These definitions are provided to you by Oxford Reference Online.

In short circus extravaganza is a spectacular performance by various entertainers, performing in a large space.
Exactly what Eurovision is about. Costumes, hair, make-up and the show.
Something about these words made another thing in my head snap and this morning I took out my make-ups and went half-crazy.
 Yes, I re-dyed my hair red and got complimented by Jim Michaels and Kim Rhodes about it, just FYI.

Also, I've been hearing some complaints about how "you can't do nice, colourful looks with the cheap eye shadows", which is (in my very honest opinion) complete bullshit.
You don't need to spend all your money on the most expensive eye shadows, when you can spend that money on a good base and primer.
Let me tell you from experience, the "cheap stuff" on a good primer and base is enough to get noticed and get compliments. I should know since I my most expensive eye shadow is M.A.C.'s Electric Eel satin, which I don't even use extremely often even though I love it.
Sure, more expensive stuff is usually better, but like I said, it's complete bullshit that one can't do colourful and nice looks with the "cheap stuff".


For this look I used:
♥ A bit of Gosh X-Ceptional wear to hide most of the imperfections around my eyes.
♥ Collection 2000 Pressed powder
♥ Gosh Velvet Touch eye primer.
♥ Lumene Arctic Definition Mineral Eyebrow Pencil.
♥ Green and yellow eye shadow from Gosh trio eye shadow palette TR20 Tropic Fever (upper lid)
♥ Orange and pink eye shadow from beauty UK's eye shadow collection 2 (upper lid)
♥ M.A.C. Electric Eel Satin eye shadow (lower lid up to the eyebrow line)
♥ Sleek Flamingo 937 blush
♥ Sleek Mystic matte lipstick
♥ Wet 'n' Wild Mega Shimmer illuminating powder brush 11 White Glow
♥ M.A.C eyelashes

Now, before any of you go off and start yelling at me that "M.A.C., Sleek and Gosh are not cheap" let me say this: I KNOW.
I know they are not the cheapest, but compare that to stuff like... gee I don't know, Lime Crime or L'Oréal, the cost-effective with M.A.C., Sleek and Gosh is so much better in my opinion.
They're affordable, their eye shadows are pigmented, and M.A.C. and Sleek's lipsticks are so good to apply, not to mention Gosh's foundation.
My Gosh Tropic Fever was about £7, and since it's really nice, easy to apply and lasts long, I don't think it's a bad prize. I can't remember how much I paid for my Sleek blush and lipsticks, but they couldn't have been over £10 per product.

BUT beauty UK is not expensive at all. I got my 10g eye shadow palettes (which both have 10 different eye shadows) for £4 pounds per palette. That's £8 for 20 different colours.
Granted, the palettes are not that big, nor are the colours massively pigmented, but they do their job just well with the primer, so I don't feel the need to go and pay myself sick with expensive eye shadows when these work well.

Eurovision, here I come~

Now after that rant, let me get back to my point about this make-up and Eurovision xD
Usually the ladies of the contest wear natural-ish make-ups and bright lips, and what the make-up lacks they make up in hair and costume. For once I would LOVE to see an extremely colourful make-up on someone on top of those costumes and hair. I would love it. Circus extravaganza at its best.
What do you think?

Anyway, this post got waaayyy longer than it was supposed to, so I'll be finishing now.
I really want to throw an Eurovision party on Saturday when the final airs, but I'm afraid no one else is willing to come and watch it with me, so I'll be dressing up alone x)

OH! Before I go, I'd like to know if any of you dear readers have any good recipes for light food that's nice during summer? My "counsellor" told me that I should eat regularly, but I barely feel like eating when it's hot outside...

But, I'm gonna go out now and see how long it takes all my make-up to melt in that heat, so stay human and blog ya later~!

Wednesday, 2 May 2012

I would like to defy your norms, if that is okay with you.

After today's Physical Theatre lecture I decided to go to Primark to see if they have some animal print leggings (which we will need for our Physical Theatre assessment, it's not like I REALLY want to wear them, and even when I have to, I'll wear something to cover my ass!), as well as to buy a new strapless bra. I was also running out of nail polish remover so I decided to kill two birds with one stone and drop by Superdrug on my way home.

What I was meant to get from my small shopping trip:
- Strapless bra
- Nail polish remover

What I ended up getting:

 Bra, a top, nail polish remover, nail buffer, crystal nail file, and two packets of hair removal cream.

Well, what else can I say than "Ooops."?
I don't even have money for all this crap so I don't know WHY I got all of that... probably because it all ended up costing me only £20. (EXCUSES, EXCUSES.)
I am still looking for jobs, and just dropped three CVs to different places AGAIN. I just hope someone would hire me soon, and if they don't, I'll just hope it was because I'm over-qualified or something.

Anyhooow, when I got home I decided to try my new bra on to see how it goes with my new dress which I got some time ago.
Btw, reason for this sudden bra purchase is the fact I am nominated for an award in our University's Students' Union's Volunteering and Society Awards. 

I don't even care that they completely screwed up my surname because I'm so excited xD

The event is held at Worcestershire County Cricket Club, which is apparently a quite nice place to hold formal events. They also informed that the dress code is formal, so I'll provide you all with a simple three row explanation which also helps to establish the fact that I needed a new bra:

Dress code: formal.
My dress: strapless.
My bras: with straps.

So after putting on my bra and the dress, I asked my flatmate Monica to take some pictures:
 Excuse my chubby feet.

 Waterfall in the back!

I said something about feeling like a spring bride, which we both laughed at. And then we just got kinda crazy...




 
Stepford The Tything Wives

So yeah... I do think that half of those should totally be included in a bridal catalogue. *nod nod*

I also got a new nail polish the other day, which I blame Jai for, because I saw it on her blog first!

I'm in the middle of my manicure here, hence the nail polish in places it should be.

I think that's about it this time, I'm going to go and continue my manicure now.
Stay human and blog ya later~!

Friday, 22 July 2011

Info about the following week and a half

Running away to a internetless place for a week!
So no updates for a while :D

Friday, 15 July 2011

"I'm told you came here in an automobile."

I was supposed to update today, but turned out I used all my time to watch Supernatural.
Again.

Aaanyhow, I'm leaving to Turku tomorrow for Animecon (gonna be performing, teaching parapara and stuff) and I'm gonna be there whole weekend... and probably without internet :I

So the update's gonna be pushed to next week probably!

You guys have a great weekend! :)